I feel something inside of me. stirring. maybe its just that time of the month...or gas...its weird...i feel weird...
Maybe its all that shit breaking down inside of me after starting THE DIET. thats right, ive just started. but better late than never, i guess. And for some reason I have this great feeling that its gonna work. But then theres this fleeting noise in the back of my head saying that its not. hmm
maybe i should post like a before picture or something, just to be that obnoxious. but then again, this whole ordeal is pretty obnoxious; me giving non existent readers an update on my journey to skinnydom.. I feel pretty shitty about it to be honest. its like it really shouldn't have to get to this point or something. i feel pathetic.
yet im still typing...hmmm.
But i have been making progress in terms of myself lately. figuring things out about myself that ive kind of been in the dark with for a while. I just hope when the actual test comes of putting everything ive learned into action, I pass.
I suppose since this summer has been exponentially shite I want to say I came out of it with some type of good. And that good will be a new personality along with a nice skinny body. a changed lez.
I just have to keep pushing. I have to put in some effort if im gonna get results. its just really hard. im making it really hard for myself. because i tend to do that alottttt. i am my own worst enemy.
"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward,
sometimes to death, but always to victory."
Give me strength people (which is no one), give me strength.
Hmm okay so this summers been a pretty shitty interesting one, thats for sure. But what were the things that kept me somewhat sane while I locked myself in my room all day? Instead of falling into the trap of working at some shitty local dance studio, not enhancing my artistic capabilities or license whatsoever, I decided to sleep all day and surf the web. And I discovered some pretty cool stuff in the process. This summer could've been a lot worse, and I couldve come out A LOT fatter, but I did alright..i guess. All I know is, I'm never spending a summer at home EVER AGAIN, even if that means fucking living out on the street for 3 months begging for food and money. I'm not putting myself into this depression anymore. It's a fucking nightmare being here.
Soooo....
-This is something I just found today. Just look at this video...this is why Thom is my main fuckin man. He was really sweaty on stage so he, erm, took care of it...
-After having started this blog like 3 years ago, I realized this summer that blogspot could not be more "yesterday." These days its all about Tumblr. There seems to be a tumblr for just about anything and everything imaginable. Celebrity crushes, fashion, food, music, anorexia... I do indeed have a tumblr, but I never update it. And I still have my blogspot which is still somewhat relevant I guess, so what the hell. Might as well keep it up.
Here are a few that I seem to check at unhealthy amounts: Compartmentalising:
A blog that analyses my favorite band radiohead down to shit like "thom yorke cuts his shirts at the sleeves and bottom sometimes because they are to big for him." ?!? Like, I wouldve NEVER noticed that..this girls basically got no life, or rather, her life is radiohead. Which I fucking love.
nyane-duro-nervioso and NYane&Mpho
These two blogs are basically the same, except the first one belongs to this AMAZING english black girl, Nyane, who is basically the poster child for indie tumblrs, and her AMAZING style. The the second belongs to both her and her still very stylish, but slightly less-amazing sister, Mpho. She still brings a lot to the table though. Basically these two South African and British beauties are the epitome of what I want my style to look like, Grungy and vintage but still with a sophisticated edge. London 2012!
Harry, Be Safe. Be Strong.
This tumblr is like hipster central, but gosh darn, does it have some awesome pictures. Young people living life, being awesome, partying, and just being as indie as humanly possible. This blog inspires me to go out there and just have a good fucking time and be the coolest and most free-spirited person around. Conservative? Me sorry, I no understand that word.
-Music
So I was getting into the grunge scene quite a bit last summer and my angsty, sligtly depressive state this summer has only driven my love for it more. And what screams angst more that grunge/garage rock? Luckily I have not fallen into the trap of getting into Nirvana (yet), but the bands and albums I've had on repeat this summer still stand in line as pioneers for their genre, and are a lot less cliche.
1) The Smashing Pumpkins
Leaders of the alternative rock scene in the 90's, this band takes influences from hardcore metal to psychedelic and glam pop to create a rock sound like no other. Obscured guitars along with Billy Corgan's unique vocal sound give me a headache in the most beautiful way possible. My favorite tracks are 'Today' (as seen in an earlier post), 'Obscured', and '1979' (a cult classic), among many others. All their stuff is available on the magnificent Spotify and surely are a quick search away on YouTube.
2) The Pixies
Oh geez, what can I say about the pixies. Talk about pioneers, theyre one of the best bands to ever have come around. I've always liked them and listened to their album 'Debaser' on the regular. But then, I actually sat down and listened to 1988's 'Surfer Rosa' (while high) and my brain went nuts. The melodies are kinda sexual if you ask me, and Black's screaming voice along with Kim Deal's pretty back up vocals are the cherry on top of a perfect sundae of an album. It has a sound like nothing you've ever heard before from a garage rock band. I cant help but headbang or imagine myself onstage singing with a stage boner when I listen to it. All their other stuff is just as great, but you have not experienced the full awesomeness of the pixies until you've listened to Surfer. Also available on the God send that is Spotify.
3) My Bloody Valentine
I thought one of my favorite bands 'Slowdive' were the epitome of the "shoe-gazer" genre (which to me is quite an underrated genre) of the 90's, but I was HUGELY mistaken after I finally got into My Bloody Valentine. Hell, they created the genre and Slowdive was influenced by them! They still get the silver, though (London 2012!). My Bloody Valentine's first album 1988's 'Isn't Anything' was good, but their second album 1990's 'Loveless' takes the cake as one of the greatest albums of the 90's, and revolutionized the alternative rock scene with the shoe-gazer genre. This album is has a tight and cohesive sound; beauty with an edge. I sit in my room and imagine riding my bike through a field of lilies, or making out with a hot blipster man in a vast ocean somewhere...(i have a vivid imagination, if you havent noticed already). And you guessed it, the whole things on Spotifyyy.
Phew! I guess it doesnt seem like a lot reading it (or maybe it does..), but that was a fucking exhausting post to create. But its worth it. I enjoy telling my 0 readers what I'm into. Somehow I feel like I did my part to expand the worlds knowledge of these very important things, and that makes me feel really good inside, cuz my taste are just impeccable, aren't they? *pats self on the back*
(...end of obvious attempt at a confidence booster.)
Now I'm gonna go smoke a cigarette and try not to think about food.
"Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tight. May it hold you through the winter of a long night. And keep you from the loneliness of yourself."~
what i find very, very sad is how the world can come together to spend massive amounts of time creating a massive art show (that can be seen from space) to promote climate change, but our politicians cant come together to agree on how to reduce our carbon emissions. It's very sad indeed.
I am very much into art and global climate issues, and I think this project is one of the coolest things ive seen being done...ever.
The event will be going on from November 20th to 28th and pictures are be posted as they come in on the website. id check it out if i were you.
So i know i promised and everything....
but do any of you care if i post pictures of a horrendously terrible concert anyway? (yes, thats how the concert was) im sure you dont.
Here are my reasons (call them excuses if you must..)
1) its been so damn long im sure people have already seen footage from at least 5 concerts after mine.
2) do people really give a shit about Adam Duritz?
3) i dont feel like dealing with legal/copyright issues if i post any footage that doesnt belong to me (and that stuff's always a bitch...)
so sorry to disappoint you. if any of you care.
ive been thinking lately about the progress of my blog, and i have come to the realization that my life is exceptionally BORING right now. i may be a blogger, but im more of a blog hunter. i cant think of how many blogs ive visited in the past hour alone. i just enjoy looking at them. but i think the thing that always draws my interest is the amount of awesomeness that goes on in their lives and the simple fact that they care enough to share it with the rest of the world. And looky there! it just so happens that people seem to be interested (who knew?).
so to the (possibly two) viewers out there, thank you for checking out this sad excuse for a proper blog. maybe starting this fall when things start happening ill have more to talk about and ultimately a better blog.
as for now, we might just have to sit in wonderment. in a land far far away, where lez's blog is the SHIT and she has a gazillion readers and everyone loves her. dream big.
this is me if my blog doesnt get any better.... yeah...
I would like to share something with you on behalf of the UNICEF (United Nations Children's Fund) corporation. They have put out a new promotional video for their new campaign called "Put it Right."
The campaign takes a five year initiative to inspire everyone to take action for the protection of children's rights.
Because, I don't know if you've noticed lately, but while were sitting at home watching our televisions and stuffing our fat faces, there are children out there that don't even have proper toilets. just lettin' ya know.
AND... Radiohead so graciously donated their song "videotape" for the video. yay!
The video really captures the hard times that these children have to go through. No child should have to go through such shit. And I think its about time we did something about it.
and one more thing...
I saw somewhere that the video was directed to bloggers so they would get more people to watch the video (50,000 people to be exact) and check out their youtube channel.
well, i did my job..
so what are you waiting for, damn it? GO CHECK IT OUT!
thank you.
counting crows concert coming soon, i promise. i hope...
so im goin to a counting crows concert on thursday. WHAT?!!! and guess what else chaps? im goin'
FO FREE. (dont ask, i just have people. ;))
surprisingly, im excited.
ahhh memories; back in 2002 (or 3?) strollin' in my car singin' "they paved paradise and put up a parking lot." again and again on mainstream radio...yeah those were the days.
apart from that; ive been quite busy with dance and decision making.
oh and sorry about that rant before, the "poet" inside of me wanted to write and for some odd reason mr. and ms. paper and pen had sprouted legs and went on a hike in the mountains. so i used da internets.
anyway, ill be sure to post some stuff from the concert...if you want. i mean, yeah i know its one of those dread-wearin lead singer, 50 different people in the group (every so many years), soundtrackin' for shrek, american bands but i suppose its good to be open minded ya know? i havent listened to them since the early 2000's so it'll be good to hear them yet again.
well, i guess i just lost quite a percentage of my readers. (and who knows how low a number that could be...)
and now its time for RECOMENDATIONS!
(oh dear.)
so if your bloody tired of itunes i think going to these two sites that amp up the underground/alternative music scene to a whole new level of wickedness might be of interest to you (you ain't gonna find any britney spears on these here sites.)
Boomkat.com
the reviews on the albums are absolutely wicked. usually you read a review and youre like "okay, yeah, thats nice..." but the exquisite wording and expressiveness in these reviews is almost scary cuz its so good. the reviews are just..captivating. am i over exaggerating? oh fuck it just go look at the site.
Bleep.com
from flying lotus to chk chk chk or urban tribe. its all up there. beats, beats, and not to mention BEATS. electronica, funk/jazz (even disco!) its all there for thou enjoyment.
i apologize if these recomendations caused anyone pain or injury.
and now i must leave you. i have quite a lot of things to do ya know. ranging from drawing horrible pictures of people who are asleep to stuffing my face with brownies and prank calling my old teachers from grade school. AHH SO MUCH TO DO!!
im looking at everyone, and they all seem so happy. and content with their lives. i think about people who have died, even though they had such a legacy, even though they could only get better in life, it all came to an end. I want to know what the future brings. im lazy. i want to be one of those people who have it happen to them. whats the secret? I know what I am becoming apart of, inside. but i cant let it fall. its not falling together. i want everything to be easy but it isnt. we must become strong. we must live our lives, but not look back. we must not back down.
"I wont stop now, or the penny will drop.
I wont stop now, I wont slack off,
or all of this love will be in vain."
Nevermind.
I look at people and they are having fun. they are getting somewhere. i am working. nothing is happening. i am obsessed, but the more i obsess the less it comes to me. "let it fall, let it fall." i dont know.
here i am and here you are. this is a blog (its a blog right?) about the ever so random things that circulate in my brain everyday. And let me tell you...theyre pretty random. Whether it be about music, fashion, ballet (which I do), fine art, politics, anime, movies, world cultures or many other things im interested in. Or maybe its just junk i want to get out of my system. hi, im lez, and i come in peace, earthling.
"In the deepest ocean,
the bottom of the sea.
Your eyes,
they turn me."
LINKS THAT I FANCY
if you've had enough of my crappy blog here are some sites to visit. These are my favorite places to visit when im surfin the net. If you want to have nothing to do with me and my stupid sites then you can ____ _____, you bloody_______ ______. enjoy!
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